One.

Happy anniversary to me.
One year of being single.
One year of trying to find me again.
At times I look back and think of how I lost my best friend.. but a best friend doesn't make you question your worth.
So instead of losing a best friend, I gained myself and a hell of a lot of self worth.

This year has made me feel crazy. It's torn me to pieces, of which I've had to pick up and figure out where to put them without having the picture on the box to guide me. I jumped in, without thinking really, but I landed in the exact spot I was supposed to be in. It's easy to say I regret those last 5 1/2 years, and sometimes I do. I also have to look at the other side because it did contribute to who I am now and how I think of myself.

I've had a time trying to figure out what I want at this point in my life and honestly, I'm still not totally sure. I want a home. I want a yard, filled with dogs. I want to travel. I want to become the best teacher I can be. And I want someone to stand beside me through it all. A best friend who loves me and appreciates me, and a best friend that I can spoil too.

When my relationship first ended, I felt like I needed to be in a rush. I've never been one to want or need a relationship but lately I've discovered I'm a relationship person. I like having someone to take care, and I like having someone to wake up next to on Sunday's and Monday's. So yeah, that's my end goal. Someone to love me while I love them just as much.

But six years later, and I know my problem. I jumped. I thought I was ready, and I went into something without analyzing every aspect. I am finally done questioning if I'm good enough for someone. This time it will be the question of if they are good enough for me. It's time I toot my own horn instead of riding in the passenger side. I'm a hard worker. I've got a big heart. I spoil the guy I care about, and I take care of those I love in my life. I'm a teammate, ready to work side by side on something I want to last.

So, happy one year of being single.

It's been a rollercoaster, but I made it. And it's the best thing that could have ever happened for me.

Now it's time to continue working on becoming the best teacher I can be. Work on getting my health on track. Focus on my friends and family. Last, to plan a trip to spoil myself.

I'm ready for someone or something, but I also know I am okay on my own. I'm okay with taking care of myself. I don't need someone to support me because I can do that myself. So, I can wait until I find someone that is good enough for me and that appreciates the person that I am.

😘😘😘